4-17-2013- TESTIMONY GIVEN TO ME AT WAL MART


"REMARKS"

THE FOLLOWING IS A TESTIMONY SOMEONE FELT LED TO GIVE TO ME, WHILE I WAS DOING A CONCERT AT WAL MART. IT CONTAINS SOME STRONG IMAGES, SO BE FOREWARNED. IT IS GIVEN TO HELP YOUR FAITH IN THE EVIL OF THIS WORLD AND THE GOOD IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH.


"THIS IS MY STORY THAT I HAVE LIVED AND IS TRUE"

WELL WHERE TO BEGIN BUT AT THE BEGINNING. 

WELL WHEN I CAME INTO THE WORLD, IT WAS ALL GOING FINE, UNTIL I CAME TO THE AGE OF 9, OR 10 YEARS OLD. I AM THE YOUNGEST OF 13 CHILDREN. I HAVE A BROTHER THAT'S 5 YEARS OLDER THAN ME AND WHEN I WAS 9, OR 10 YEARS OLD, WHEN HE STARTED MESSING WITH ME SEXUALLY.

I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO SO, I TOLD MY MOTHER AND MY FATHER BUT THEY ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS LYING TO THEM, SO NOTHING WAS DONE TO STOP HIM FROM DOING THE THINGS HE HAD DONE TO ME.

SO I PRAYED, AND PRAYED, AND PRAYED, BUT IT STILL HAPPENED, IT WENT ON FOR THREE YEARS.

MY BROTHER THEN IT HAPPENED, HE WAS CAUGHT DOING THE SAME THING TO ANOTHER BOY, THEN HE WENT TO JAIL.

AND I TOLD MY MOTHER HE DID THE SAME THING TO ME BUT MY MOTHER DIDN'T BELIEVE ME AND SHE STILL DOESN'T BELIEVE ME TO THIS DAY.

SO THAT MADE ME GO TO DOING DRUGS AND DRINKING BEER AND WHISKEY AND I DROPPED OUT OF SCHOOL. I STARTED SMOKING DRUGS AND I SHOT UP DRUGS FOR 4 YEARS, I WAS 16 WHEN I STARTED SHOOTING UP DRUGS.

AND I STILL PRAYED TO GOD ASKING HIM WHY MY BROTHER, DID WHAT HE DID TO ME?

IT WASN'T TILL MY 20TH BIRTHDAY, THAT I WAS CAUGHT FOR STEALING, AND I WENT TO JAIL. I WAS IN THERE FOR 36 DAYS. I STAYED CLEAN WHILE I WAS IN THERE AND I PRAYED, AND PRAYED, TO THE LORD JESUS TO HELP ME IN ANY WAY HE COULD. AND FOR THE FIRST TIME I FELT AT PEACE AND A WEIGHT WAS LIFTED OFF MY CHEST, BUT I STILL WENT BACK TO DRINKING. I DRANK WHISKEY ALOT FOR ABOUT A YEAR.

I PRAYED, AND PRAYED FOR A MATE AND THE LORD ANSWERED MY PRAYER.

I WAS MARRIED ON MAY 26, 1996.

 ABOUT A MONTH LATER, I DRANK 3 BOTTLES OF WHISKEY IN ONE NIGHT AND I DIED". THAT NIGHT I WILL "NEVER FORGET."

I FELT LIKE GOING TO THE BATHROOM, SO I GOT UP AND WHEN I STOOD UP, I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO ANYMORE, SO I TURNED AROUND AND SAW MYSELF LAYING THERE, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK, WHEN I HEARD A VOICE SAYING, "PAUL, YOU ARE GOING TO GO TO HELL."

I TURNED AROUND AND THERE WAS THIS VERY DARK MAN SITTING ON MY DRESSER. HE HAD 3 BIG ROUND RED HOLES IN HIS HEAD. 2 OF THE HOLES WAS WHERE HIS EYES WERE AND I HOLE WHERE HIS MOUTH SHOULD BE. SO I RAN TO THE BACK ROOM OF THE HOUSE BUT WHEN I GOT THERE, I COULDN'T FIND MY WAY BACK OUT, EVERYTHING GOT SO DARK, I COULDN'T SEE NOTHING. 

I HEARD VOICES AND I SAW WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE HANDS COMING FOR ME, SO I KNELT DOWN AND SAID WITH A LOUD VOICE, "JESUS IF YOU ARE REALLY REAL, PLEASE, PLEASE, COME AND SAVE ME NOW." 

AS SOON AS I SAID THAT, A DOT OF BRIGHT LIGHT APPEARED AND THAT DOT OPENED UP INTO A HALLWAY AND THEN A MAN WALKED THROUGH, AND TO MY SURPRISE, IT WAS JESUS.

HE SAID, DO NOT BE AFRAID. THEN HE RAISED UP HIS ARMS AND PULLED BACK HIS SLEEVES AND SAID, "TOUCH, FEEL, AND I SAW THE HOLES THAT WERE IN HIS WRIST, NOT IN HIS HAND, THEN HE OPENED HIS ROBE AND SAID, " TOUCH, FEEL, IT IS I."

I SAID, LORD DOES IT HURT? HE SMILED AND SAID, "NO". HE SAID PAUL, YOU HAVE AN APPOINTMENT. HE SAID, "FOLLOW ME". SO I FOLLOWED JESUS INTO THE HALLWAY AND I TURNED AROUND AND I SAW THE DOORWAY CLOSE INTO A DOT, THAT DIDN'T MATTER NO MORE. 

AND I TURNED BACK AROUND AND I SAW THESE PILLARS, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY. I WALKED UP TO THE 7TH PILLAR AND JESUS SAID, "KISS IT", SO I DID, THEN AT THAT MOMENT JESUS SAID, "WE WERE THERE". TWO DOORS APPEARED BEFORE JESUS, THEY WERE VERY BIG WOODEN DOORS. THEY OPENED UP BEFORE US AND JESUS WALKED THROUGH AND I FOLLOWED HIM.

IN IT WAS A WHITE JUDGMENT ROOM. THERE WERE NO WITNESSES STAND, OR PROSECUTOR'S STAND, THERE WAS ONLY THE JUDGES THRONE. WE WALKED UP TO THE BENCH OF GOD, JESUS KNEELED DOWN AND SAID, "ALL HAIL THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA, THE BEGINNING AND THE END, MY FATHER!

AND I STOOD THERE IN AWE, I COULDN'T MOVE, GOD WAS SITTING BEFORE ME!

THE LORD GOD RAISED UP HIS RIGHT HAND, WHILE JESUS SAID, "PAUL IF YOU CHOOSE WISELY, YOU WILL GO HERE AND THE WALL THAT THE LORD GOD RAISED, BECAME HEAVEN AND IT WAS A WONDROUS SIGHT!

THERE WAS A GOLDEN STONE WALKWAY, THAT WENT UP TO THE GATES OF HEAVEN AND THE BUILDINGS INSIDE WEREN'T AT ALL THE SAME. SOME WERE TALL, SOME WERE THIN AND SOME WERE SMALL.

THEN THE LORD GOD RAISED HIS LEFT HAND UP TO THE OTHER WALL AND JESUS SAID, "IF YOU CHOOSE WRONGLY, THIS IS WHERE YOU WILL GO." AND THE WALL BECAME A DARK HOLE IN THE WALL AND I SAW WHAT IT LOOKED LIKE A HORSE SHOE SHAPED GULLY, WITH A CLIFF.

THERE AS I WALKED ON TO THE CLIFF, I SAW AN OCEAN OF FIRE AND IN THE OCEAN, THERE WERE THESE LITTLE MEN, THEY LOOKED LIKE THE DARK MAN THAT TOLD ME I WAS GOING TO "HELL." AND EVERY TIME THE OCEAN WOULD HIT THE WALL, THESE LITTLE MEN WOULD BE THROWN UP AND WOULD FALL BACK DOWN INTO THE OCEAN OF FIRE, SO I TURNED AROUND AND KNELT BEFORE THE LORD GOD, THE FATHER, AND SAID, "PLEASE, PLEASE LORD, DON'T SEND ME BACK. AND AS THE LORD GOD THE FATHER, STRETCHED OUT HIS LEFT HAND AND HE SHOOK HIS HEAD NO, I REMEMBER THE LOVE I FELT WASN'T LIKE ANYTHING I HAVE FELT BEFORE AND I WAS BACK IN MY BODY AGAIN. 

I RAISED UP OUT OF BED STILL REACHING FOR GOD, THEN I REALIZED, I WAS BACK IN THIS WORLD AGAIN, BUT EVERYTHING SEEMED BRIGHTER, TEN TIMES. THEN IT WAS THE DAY BEFORE AND I FOUND MYSELF TO BE SOILED AND URINATED.

BUT TO THIS DAY, I STILL REMEMBER EVERY LITTLE DETAIL AND I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE, I KNOW THE LORD GOD, THE FATHER, AND JESUS DO, TO THIS DAY LIVE!!

"TESTIMONY  BY PAUL CLAXTON"